Happiness, happiness. The greatest gift that I possess ...

I thank the lord, that i've been blessed
with none of my share of happiness.

A brief discussion with a friend has made me think about happiness. I would call myself a very unhappy person. But I've never thought about what it would take to make me happy. Despite the difficulty and redundancy of such a list, I'm going to try and compile it anyway.

Firstly.
A clean bill of health would be nice. No more depression, no more OCD, no more anxiety or anything. That would make the rest of my life so much easier.
Secondly.
Friends. I know for most of you they're an integral part of life. For me they are not. It would be nice to have more than aquaintances. People I see, people I spend time with, people I know and who know me. It would be nice to know there's always someone there for me. At the moment, I'm pretty much on my own. I would like that to change.
Thirdly.
It would be nice to be attractive. Most people say "looks don't matter" or "beauty's only skin deep." It's not like that when you're not good looking. You're aware of it. You know exactly what people think of you. You're aware that there are gorgeous, thin, seemingly perfect people everywhere. Everywhere you look, in every nook and cranny of the media. It's impossible to feel any level of self worth when the standard for beauty (and its importance) increases each and every day. I'd like it if I didn't have to worry about being hideous.
Fourthly.
I'd like it to be September. I'd like to be back in education. I'd also like it if I hadn't had to drop out of college. It's embarrassing having to explain why I failed miserably. It's the first failure i'd ever encountered. Not having had it happen would've been good.
Finally.
It'd be nice to have some form of significant other. If nothing else. I would like this one the most. I don't see it happening. I'm not pleasant to be around, i'm not pleasant on the eyes, I have a lot of problems and i'm generally boring and unlikeable. One day, maybe it'll happen. But I don't see it anytime soon. I'm worried i'm going to be alone for a long, long time. It seems unfair.

And that's all I can think of off the top of my head.
It's a lot to ask.
But it's what i'd need.
I have so little, I need a bit of happiness and hope.

Life
really
sucks.